Letting Go

Hi.

I laughed when I read the next prompt because of what instantly surfaced in my mind.


"React to the term: Letting go."

Obviously.  Am-I-right?

I'm pretty certain that Disney has cemented that into the minds of us all, and I don't mind it one bit.

But seriously, my reaction to the expression is realizing it's a behavior that I need more of in my life.  (The mister is probably saying "I told you so" and "amen" right now.  He is the lord of letting go.)

However my unwelcome penchant for anxiety, insecurity, and wanting to know exactly how every detail will work out is sort of the eternal enemy of letting go.  I am the one who stews over a conversation for hours after, thinking of all the things I should have said.  I am the one who worries about how purchasing a Vespa is going to affect the rest of our finances.  I am the one who can sometimes experience a self-image shutdown because of chin zit.

Or I would be if I didn't have a God to whom I can trust the enormous and minute details of life.  Or a husband who reminds me of that fact.  (Or who tells me I'm beautiful even when I have a chin zit... although admittedly, sometimes it's after he's pointed out the fact that I have one.  Thanks for that, love.)

Our future is where I currently need to perfect the art of letting go.  I actually read a blog post HERE last week that resonated with me and lines up perfectly with today's topic.  As I read I thought, Yes! This is what I've been feeling, but I didn't even realize it!  

I don't know where I thought we'd be a this point in our lives.  I only knew what our dreams for later looked like, resulting in an intense desire to be settled and there already.  Not because I'm not enjoying the season of life we are experiencing now, but because of the uncertainty.  I like knowing what's going to happen.

Recently I've felt bombarded with messages about trusting God with the future, but it wasn't until I read that post that the idea was able to finally bloom into understanding.  How freeing it would be to just hand it all over and trust Him to lead!

Didn't He open doors when Jered was accepted to Loyola's accelerated program even though he was missing a prerequisite?  Hasn't He continually provided jobs for Jered and me since graduation?  Didn't He take care of the details during our move last year?  Hasn't He brought us into this fantastic stage of our lives?

Absolutely.

So why do I worry if Jered and I aren't one hundred percent certain what's going to happen next for us?  No more.  Just kidding.  Old habits die hard and all that.  However, I am going to work at praying over those questions more often and trusting that God will continue to open and close the doors for us, rather than trying to force them open ourselves myself or ignoring them.

Maybe I'll claim THIS SONG as my theme song for now.

We'll get there.  Better yet, He'll take us there.  All I have to do is let go.

Talk to you later.

Aim