Trust

Last night's youth group lesson was on trust.  More specifically, it was about trusting the Bible as truth.

We broke up into our small groups and went over some discussion questions about who we trust, why we trust them and what it really means to trust.  We also talked about why we can trust the Bible.

This topic reminded me of the fact that I usually have trouble trusting people.  I don't know why, just do.  And along with being wary of trusting others, I think I'm a little leery of trusting myself.  I always second guess my abilities, my knowledge, my talents. 

Occasionally, very occasionally, I am too trusting.

Last night... I was too trusting of myself.

This year, I've decided to save money by trimming my own hair.  It's gone quite well.  I've succeeded at making my hair look and feel healthier, and a few weeks ago, I even took off a few large inches and gave myself bangs again.

Last night... something came over me.  I think that maybe when I'm stressed, or feeling anxious, I feel like doing something a little crazy.  I decided to take the scissors to my locks yet again.

Everything was going beautifully.  Not to sound proud or anything, but it was looking really cute.  Katie was watching me in awe and claimed I was her hero.  And then it happened.  I guess pride really does come before the fall because I made one wrong move, and that was it...

Before I knew what was happening, I was cutting more and more hair to try to fix my blunder.  And then... I ended up with a 70s, Beatles-looking haircut. 

I know.  How did this happen to the girl who used to be so careful when it came to her hair.  She was voted best hair in high school for Pete's sake!  I guess the long road of perms, bleach blond hair, black hair, perms, and super highlights, could only lead to such a disastrous destination. 

Needless to say, I'm going to find somewhere to get my hair altered tomorrow.

So, this is where my head and my heart are right now.  Last night, I said to my small group, "It's easy to say you trust someone or trust the Bible, but how do we put that into action?" 

Last night, I put my trust in my ability into action.  Wrongly.  The wonderful thing is, I cannot wrongly put my trust in God or His word, into action.  If I stop just saying that I trust Him, and actually put that trust, that faith into action, it will not have the negative repercussions that my snip-happy hands created.

He is always good, and always perfect, and always has my best interest at heart. 

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  Jeremiah 29:11 NIV